fighting the invader

This is about my life as a woman of 46 yrs with breast cancer with young children

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Hi to anyone who stillr eads this, this is Mags (Emma). I have been missing Kate, my poodle, so much recently and have been up late looking at photo's and emails when I found this one and amongst the tears it made me smile and I thought some of you may enjoy it and it may make you smile too.

Dear all


I thought you might be interested in knowing the result of an exhaustive

study performed at the home of well known researcher Kate Trundell into

whether exercising mind control over the growth of weeds and the reduction

of the ironing pile actually worked.

This study performed over a matter of the last week involved the researcher

staring wistfully at her ever increasing pile of ironing and overgrowth of

weeds and seeing if mind control could stop the weeds growing or indeed if

the weeds would keel over and disappear and that the clothes would

miraculously uncrease themselves. However, results published today revealed

the startling fact that it didn't matter how long the weeds or ironing were

glared at nothing changed. A change of tactic was then employed which

required the swallowing of a lot of voltarol (anti-inflammatory painkillers)

and activity and resulted in the garden being relatively weedfree.

Unfortunately, the ironing pile has still not reduced and so some of the

clothes have been put away in a creased condition. This may well require

another study to see if the clothes uncrease themselves in the wardrobe and

cupboards but at least the settee is visible now.

If anybody requires more information into this study please contact the

above named researcher to arrange a date to go out for lunch, or an evening

searching out the effects of alcohol or a visit by the researcher.

Looking forward to seeing you soon

Kate

PS Greece was lovely - brilliant not to have to cook and shop




I love her so much... I miss her everyday xxx

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Hello. It is Kate's sister. Just wanted to say hello to anyone who still visits this blog and remembers Kate .I cant believe that a year has gone . Still miss her so much .We will never forget you Kate .Forever in our hearts.

I love you my Poodle and miss you everyday. I don't know how a year has gone by...I still think about you and want to speak to you everyday...I remember your laugh and all the jokes we made, i miss the emails and all the times you have supported me. I hope I make you proud. I love you so much...you will never be forgotten... you are far too amazing xxxx

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Happy Birthday Kate.
Miss you more then you know.
Can't believe you're not here....
I love you and am thinking about you.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Hello again it's Mags (Emma).

I did go to university and I am getting along okay I will post something better with more input another day. I wanted to put a post from my mum up, (Kate's sister) as she left it as a comment but I felt it would be read easier as a post.

Hi anyone who still looks at this. It is kates sister. Just wanted to say thank you to all who commented on emmas input. we all still miss Kate so much especially at this time of year.Not really sure what to write but just wanted to have contact with people who knew Kate and send love to you all .judy xx

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Hello to anyone that still reads this or stumbles across this amazing blog.

This is Emma again... I wanted to write down some things about Kate.
I miss her so much.. I'm finding things hard at the moment, I wake up and can;t get back to sleep. I think about her constantly. I keep getting angry at lots of people because they have no idea what thsi greif is like. What pain this really is... So many people have things worse I know but so many people have it better. I get so frustrated and upset and I just want her back. I keep finding feathers about... Kate told me she believed they were from angels.. She'd randomly find these white feathers. the day after Kate died I foudn a blue feather on my bed. I think that was a first sign, a distinction from her thats he was still about. I find feathers alot recently it is a small comfort. I keep belivign Kate is giving me messages through my I-pod. I know you think I;m crazy but out of abotu 2000 song I put it on shuffle and asked Kate to send me a message in teh next song and the song was Bon Jovi-Thank you for loving me.

I got into University I start in october but sometimes I really feel like whats the point?
The last yr Kate was ill I did an Access course and it was solely to get into university. I didn;t do any work for most of teh year and kate told me she wanted me to just before she died. i;d sort of given up. But because she basically made me promise I did it, 18 essays in like a month and a half all A-level standard. Well I did it and I'm gonna start University in october.

I want to post some lyrics but I don't know if people will like them or find them insanely depessing.

The song is called Machines and it is by Biffy Clyro

I would dig a thousand holes to lay next to you
I would dig a thousand more if I needed to
I look around the grave for an escape route of old routines
There doesn’t seem to be any other way

Cause I’ve started falling apart I’m not savouring life
I’ve forgotten how good it could be to feel alive

Crazy as it sounds you wont feel as low as you feel right now
At least that’s what I've been told by everyone
I whisper empty sounds in your ear and hope that you won’t let go
Take the pieces and build them skywards

Cause I've started falling apart I’m not savouring life
I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
I've started falling apart I'm not savouring life
Take the pieces and build them skywards

I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've started falling apart I'm not savouring life
Take the pieces and build them skywards

I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've started falling apart I'm not savouring life
Take the pieces and build them skywards

I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
Take the pieces and build them skywards

Take the pieces and build them skywards
and
Take the pieces and build them skywards
and
Take the pieces and build them up to the sky.

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Friday, May 08, 2009

Hello this Emma again.

I just wanted you to know how grateful myself and the rest of Kates family are for all your kind words and support at this time. Your comments, messages, charity run and tibutes are an amazing comfort to us and such a display of love for Kate.

Thank you to all who attended the funeral yesterday and all those who couldn't make it but thoughts were with us.

I am sorry if i did not personally greet you and we have spoken on here or facebook. I am sorry I do get shy around new people and I truly do appreciate you.

I was overcome with emotion on several occasions by your tributes and kinds words.
I am sorry that my own personal tribute to Kate was a little hard on hearing.
I was asked by many of you to post it on here so here you go...

This is the poem I wrote for Kate...

Little Feet and Big Woods


Little feet marching on the fallen leaves
Crunching branches as they carefully weave
“Why are all the trees so tall?” little feet cried
Big feet stopped smiled and sighed
“Because they all want to reach the sky”
“But why Big feet tell me why?”

Little feet jumping from rock to rock
Hiking along the unsteady blocks
“Why do the mountains stretch up so high?”
Big feet stopped smiled and sighed
“Because they want to reach the sky”
“But why Big feet tell me why?”

Little feet splashing in the puddles
Getting into a lot of muddles
“Why does the water shine so
Tell me big feet I want to know”
“Because it looks up to the sky”
“But why Big feet tell me why”

Little feet ran through the long grass
But stopped when they saw no path
“Big feet I cannot see the way”
Big feet took little feet’s hand and began to say
“A way can be found in the sky”
“But tell me Big feet tell me why”

Little feet stopped to see the view
Looked out in to the vast blue
“What is that shinning in the sky?”
Big feet held Little feet and sighed
“One day Little feet I will be gone
And all in life will feel so wrong
But Little feet do not despair
For in the sky I will be there
Like the shining lights around
My love for you can always be found
Do you see why the mountains reach so high?
And why the trees will always try?
The sun keeps the world alive
The flowers and the animals thrive
Just like the light you see in the sky
Love is light and this is why
We shall never be apart
For in every light from sun to stars
Light forever strong and true
Just like the love from me to you
For I will love you for eternity
And everyday in between
Now let us walk in the woods Little feet
And see all the beauty in the trees”

© Copywrite Emma Everingham

Thank you for reading it.

Thank you for everything.

Emma aka Mags

xxx

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

Hello, my name is Emma. I have been writing on here as Mags for my Aunty Kate (Poodle as I call her on here).
I am so very sorry to inform you that Kate passed away yesterday (Wednesday 22nd April) at around 3 30pm.
She had her mum and her husband by her side when she passed away peacefully. It is the only comfort I have to give.

She was amazing and I am so proud of her as I know all who knew her will agree.
I miss her more then I ever fathomed possible and this is a great sadness on anyone who knew her.

Leave comments if you wish I will publish them for you and they will be up on here online.

If you need to know funeral dates and times leave a comment on here with contact details and I will contact you.

I am also very sorry if you personally knew her and we have not found a way to contact you more personally sooner then on here.

Thank you so much for all your support and well wishes and for reading such an amazing person's blog.

Thank you

xxx

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